Tasting Freedom

So here we are in 2007. What a wonderful day today is. I woke up all warm, fuzzy, comfy and happy. I felt free, without the scariness of being too free. It's been perfect.

I went to church this morning, where I haven't gone since I sang in December. It was sweet seeing people and socializing again. I didn't really realize people actually paid attention to me, and no, I don't say this because I have a big ego or something like that. It was so cool to see a friend of my mom, and well a friend's mom, who came up to me to say "hi", and "how's it going", and "haven't seen you in awhile". I felt so special. I also got a little farther on my camp application form with asking questions and sending out reference forms, and all that fun stuff. I'm soo excited! Summer seems too far from reach!

At this moment in time, I am getting 97.6 % (highest in the class :D)in my English course which I have 2 more weeks of. I've completed, and handed in everything on time too! I'm finally changing the way I've been wanting to for the longest time. Hopefully it sticks. There have been days when I'm fine at school, but a few minutes after getting in the door at home, I'm just done. But it's getting better! And it's wonderful!

My mind is freeing itself from the clenching grasp of my insanity that has been bringing me down the dark well of uncertainty, insecurity and slowly draining my courage and happiness. I'm bobbing around near the top, I've gasped in the sweet air above a few times! If only I can catch hold onto the sides well enough to pull myself out. It's like I'm in jail and there is a parole hearing for me, which might let me go out on parole as a tease and bring me right back, or I might be free at last.

Like my last time, I'm leaving for the love of food. I smell it calling my name. May the music be with you. Miracles are a happening all around. Think happy thoughts. Okay, I'm hungry.

Jailbird tasting freedom.